Dec 15 2008

scRambling to Catch Up

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 6:25 pm

This is not going to be an organized post. It’s going to be a rambly get it all off my chest post. I’m paralyzed by the number of things i want to say, so i’m just going to say it all at once. It would be more interesting, more readable, wittier, etc if i divided it into a dozen different posts. But this one rambly post is all i can manage.

First of all, i don’t know how those of you who are parents do it. I have only myself to worry about, and i still don’t get everything done. How do you do it? How do you do it and not go crazy? I spent some time with my cousins over Thanksgiving, and they are sweet, stimulating, surprising and very good kids. They are also loud, wildly diverse, needy and loud. How do you meet their needs, satisfy their interests, AND also feed yourself and your family, find time to workout, find time to read books, blog about everything, and do the other things that i don’t even know about? Mucho kudos to the parents.

Speaking of Thanksgiving, i’ll go ahead and interject that mine was great, and i hope yours was. Grandma completely ignored the situation with the letters. This is fine with me. In fact, if everyone just ignores it, it will be EXACTLY the same situation as it was before i came out as an atheist. Only now i can be fairly sure that i won’t be asked to be the one to say grace before meals. Works for me.

Back to me. In the past two weeks, i’ve been trying to get my life “on track”. Sort of getting a jump start on New Year’s resolutions, by starting in December.

  • I’ve been trying to cook meals at home in a general attempt to eat healthier. If i’m following any diet plan, it’s Dr Phil’s. But it’s really just “eat less, eat healthier, exercise more.” My strategy so far is to cook several dishes on Sundays and then divide it into single serving tupperware containers so they are ready to heat and eat throughout the week. We also eat a lot of salads. This has been working really well. Though i have to admit, the prep work is pretty time-consuming.
  • I’ve been trying to exercise more. Aerobics classes at lunchtime. Long walks on weekends. This will be fairly easy to keep up with if i just make a priority out of it. And i’m hoping i can continue to do that in the new year as i’ll have a new position (more on this below) that has less of an on-call nature.
  • I haven’t consumed any soda in the past two weeks. I actually didn’t intend to stop drinking soda, i just consciously tried to drink more water. Turns out, when you’re trying to drink the recommended 8 glasses of water per day, there isn’t a lot of room for other liquids. So, this has been an interesting side effect. I find i really like water now, and i don’t even want soda. Sometimes i vary it up with Crystal Light or Gatorade. I haven’t noticed any caffeine withdrawal or anything, but i do still drink a cup of coffee every morning. And i DO get headaches if i skip the morning coffee. But everyone says caffeine is bad for you. Maybe i’ll eventually try to stop drinking coffee too. Next year – right now i have enough to worry about. And too much change at once is a recipe for failure.
  • We recently tried soy milk for the first time. It wasn’t bad. I’ve heard conflicting things about how cow’s milk is bad for us. Anyway, it can’t hurt to experiment and perhaps substitute soy sometimes.

So, lots of changes. I’m hoping i can sustain all this for another week. Then the holidays hit and it’s back to Asheville for a few more days, which will disrupt my schedule. But that’s OK – i think i’ll just relax and enjoy the holiday food. I’ll try not to stuff myself, but i’m not going to worry too much about what i’m eating. Then, when we get back home, i’m hoping that the new year’s resolution momentum will help me last a few more weeks at least. They say it takes four weeks to form a habit, and that’s what i hope this will become.

I mentioned a new position. Yes, i was offered and accepted a new position at work. My office will be moved to a new building the first Wednesday after the break, and i officially start Jan 15. I’m excited and nervous. Oddly, i’m not nervous about the job itself. I trust myself to learn what i need to know and get the job done. I am somewhat nervous that i am making a mistake, that i won’t love it. I tell myself now that it is just the fear of the unknown. Only time will tell.

I have been reading a fair amount. I don’t know if i’ll get around to writing book reviews for all of them. Suffice it to say that the Merlin trilogy by Mary Stewart continues to be satisfying. New Moon, the second book in the Twilight series, annoyed me so much i don’t know if i will read the rest of the series. Oh, i probably will. I just hope the 3rd book is better.

I’m still playing a fair amount of bridge, though it’s less of a priority for me right now. In 2009 i want to go to two of the three national tournaments, so i think it will become a bigger part of my life again. For now, i’m trying to write a bridge column now and again

I’m nearly done with my christmas shopping. I still need a gift for the six-year-old who has everything, and i need to send some packages off in the mail. My brother in Chicago and his gentler half will not be making it home at all this year, sadly. But i’m already scheming a visit to see them soon.

I’m getting my hair done this week. I’m not sure yet, but i think it will be a moderately drastic change. Combine that with the 9-10 pounds i will have lost since Thanksgiving (i’m about 7 lbs lighter right now), and i’ll seem like a different person altogether to my folks. Yay.

If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading. Happy Holidays!

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Sep 16 2008

My Phobia

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 8:39 pm

A couple of my blog buddies have posted about some of their phobias.  Cindy has an interesting kite phobia, as well as many other phobiasKerry has arachnophobia.

For the most part, i don’t think i am afraid of any of these things.  I don’t particularly like spiders, or mice, and would prefer that Lance handle those unpleasantries when necessary.  But they don’t paralyze me, and i could deal with them if i had to.

What i am kind of afraid of, though, is bridges.  Big bridges over large bodies of water.

Driving over a bridge makes me very nervous.  I was reminded of this when driving to and from the Outer Banks earlier this month.  Both hands must be on the wheel – there is no casual one-handed steering on a bridge.  My hands grip the wheel tightly.  I repeat to myself in my head “I will not drive off the bridge.”  And i have to resist the urge to roll down the windows.  See, i am afraid i will drive off the bridge and into the water.  Of course i will survive that, but my power windows will not work once in the water, and i will be unable to get out.  And i will drown.

Someone recently told me about the LifeHammer (or similar) tool, a tool that is made specifically for this situation!  It’s supposed to be able to cut you out of your seat belt and break your window.  Perfect!  I didn’t know they made such a tool, and it’s now on my list.

I also really really don’t like the underwater tunnels.  Normal tunnels, under mountains instead of water, don’t bother me much.  An accident in a mountain tunnel seems less likely to cause the tunnel to collapse.  I also think you have a higher chance of surviving a cave-in if it occurred in a normal tunnel.  You’d be partially protected by your car, and could possibly survive until the rescuers dug you out.  But if an underwater tunnel collapses, i think you’re just fucked.

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Jul 25 2008

Happy Birthday To Me!

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 10:22 am

Yesterday I turned 30 years old.  My twenties are over, and a new decade begins.

Every birthday, i receive a call from my dad, who always says “They sure do give out good babies in _____, Illinois!”  I love that.

I have been extremely fortunate in my life.  I am rich in friends and family.

I cannot ask for more.

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Jul 23 2008

Twenty-nine

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 9:01 am

The very first thing Lance said to me this morning, at about 6:30 am, right after the alarm went off, was “Today is the last day of you being in your 20s.”  And then he snickered.

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Jun 09 2008

I know what this dream means…

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 3:47 pm

Last night i dreamed that me, lance & a chic whose blog i read (whom i don’t know personally and who has nothing to do with the people involved in the dream) were all hanging out one night. In the morning, we decided to go to breakfast with my family without wearing any clothes. My family was not pleased, and we had to go change before we could join them.

I have experienced the naked dream before in other situations about which i had anxiety. This one is obviously about my anxiety about my relationship with my parents. The tension between us on the religion issue has become even more heightened in the last week since an unfortunate accident and hospitalization of one of my cousins. Now every phone call has a lot of references to the lord and how it is a miracle she is alive. And by the way, your cousin belonged to the lord so if she had died she would have gone to heaven whereas if it had been you, and you died, you would go to hell .

I think the part of the dream where we decided to go naked is symbolic of my recent decision that i should get some talk therapy to help me figure out how to assert myself in this relationship. Every other time i’ve had this dream it’s because i’ve just forgotten my clothes.

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Apr 28 2008

My brachioradialis hurts

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 4:42 pm

At least, i think it’s my brachioradialis…

This morning i woke up and it felt like my forearms, moreso my right arm, were broken. Just propping myself up to get out of bed was hurting. So i lie there trying to imagine what weird sleeping position would have made my arms hurt like this.

And then i remembered – i trimmed the hedges yesterday. So i was holding a 15 pound electric hedgetrimmer out in front of my body for about 20 minutes. And apparently, that makes your arms feel like they are broken the next morning.

At least the bushes look good.

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Apr 16 2008

Wasting time on FaceBook

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 4:44 pm

Well, i resisted even trying facebook for a long time. I figured it was about the same as myspace. But, i learned it’s a ton more interactive. I have wasted SO much time over there trying to find friends (much easier than on myspace), and playing with the applications. It’s fun, but extremely time-consuming.

A funny thing happened – i was browsing the page of a friend from high school to see if i knew anyone. And i found MY BROTHERS. Ha! I hadn’t even thought to look for them. So, thanks Cammie for hooking me up with them electronically.

I’ll probably keep blogging over here, when i remember to blog, but i don’t know if i can really keep up with TWO social networking sites. One might be more than i can handle.

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Mar 08 2008

i’m glad the week is over

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 6:04 pm

The first week of my new job is finally over. I like it, i do, but man i needed the weekend. I slept like a log last night.

This week, i: started a new job and worked a lot more than i normally do, juggled responsibilities & transition stuff from the old job, learned vi (and a BUNCH of other little things i need to know for the new job), gave my first toastmaster’s speech, played bridge twice, and prepared the house for my parents’ visit this weekend. That seems like a short list in comparison to how i felt when it was over; i was exhausted.

It’s been a tough week, and mostly because of the job stuff. But i’m extremely glad i’m not with my old group anymore. The politics & bullshit surrounding them has just gotten out of control.

Next week is bound to be better.

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Feb 24 2008

I hope this isn’t the flu

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 6:06 pm

The most prominent symptom is a raw throat.  I’m not coughing overmuch, but when i do, it’s a deep, yucky cough.  The pressure in my inner ears is weird; it’s like it itches way in there and i can’t scratch it.  No fever so far.  Body is a little fatigued, but that could just be because i haven’t forced it to do anything.  I’ve been able to sleep a lot – took a 2-hour nap yesterday and then slept a good 10 hours last night.

I’ve been sucking on those Halls Defense drops, that have extra vitamin C.  Don’t know if that will really help.  Drinking water, getting rest… hopefully i can kick this without really feeling too much worse.

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Feb 22 2008

Outside my comfort zone

Category: Uncategorizedpodrey @ 6:07 pm

How often do you go outside your comfort zone and do something that you find just a little bit scary?

I don’t do it very often.  I’m very organized.  I like to execute things according to a plan.  I generally like to know what’s going to happen.  I have my routines, and they suit me just fine.

The boss-lady at work recommended i get some speaking experience.  And public speaking is not something in my comfort zone.  I’ve given a few presentations, and i like to think i do okay with plenty of practice.  But i know there are many improvements i could make, and i’m definitely not very good at on-the-spot, high pressure requests for input that require more than a sentence from me.  So i’ve recently joined the ToastMaster’s group at work.

Three weeks now i’ve attended, and yesterday i spoke up for the first time.  It was very weirdly difficult to try and coherently express the ideas that i had in my head, but hadn’t rehearsed at all how to say it.  You wouldn’t think just talking and saying what you think would be that hard.  It’s not hard for everyone.  Lance, for example, has no problem getting in front of a group and talking about bridge.  Me, i have to practice.

Well anyway, it should be an interesting experience.  Definitely outside my comfort zone.  And the ultimate goal is self-improvement, which i strongly believe we should all undertake throughout our lives.

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